Monday, October 24, 2011


Sometimes -
It seems hard to find joy
It's difficult to put a finger on why
It's also hard to be completely honest as to why

It's not that I'm unhappy, just a feeling of being unsettled

Maybe it's because -
Cold weather makes me feel sad
I dread winter (I hate to admit feels so shallow)
I'm still adjusting to mostly one income
I don't like to stretch a dollar..... all the time (there are better bargain hunters out there than me. I wish I were better at it.  feels like it takes too much energy at times!!)
I'm tired (wonder if changing to a new pair of contacts would help....but it would be my last pair and I'd have to order more. really, I think that way!)
Moving feels overwhelming (geeze, and I'm just beginning the process!!)
Christmas is coming (which means doing less giving than I would like, again. I love to shop and give)

OK, ENOUGH OF THAT! I have so much to be thankful for!

I have a granddaughter who will be born in about a week. Oh. My. Goodness. I cannot wait to meet her!
I'm blessed with a wonderful Hubby and family.
I love my kids and they love me
I serve a Great Big God - he knows my beginning all the way to the end....He Is In Control!
I have a wonderful church family.
We have a wonderful pastor who is not timid about teaching what God lays on his heart for us to hear. That is a good thing!
I have a big bunch of siblings who love each other and love the Lord too
I have food on the shelves, in the frig and in the freezer - not all the food I would like but more than many in this world.
I have a comfortable home - again, not everything is new or really, really nice. But we never get wet in a rain storm and it's warmer inside than out.
Heck, I even have enough clothes and shoes to wear. Not a lot but enough.
I have a car and it's paid for
Greta is baking cookies =) Pumpkin Chocolate Chip cookies!!!!

This is a different post than I usually do. I prefer to write about happy, joyful, endearing times that involve family. Today I'm feeling blah, so I thought I would be honest and say it!


The sun will come out tomorrow, bet my bottom dollar! (hehe)


Theresa said...

As I say about my blog... it is MY daily journal and not every day is "skippideedoodah happy"! We all have days like you are having and friends share with friends... even the blah days!

Can't wait to meet your new Grandbaby, that will sure put a kick in your step:)


Anonymous said...

Theresa is right - we all experience these feelings and friends are there in the good and the bad times. You and your family have been in my prayers and I'm saying a special prayer for you. My old college friend is a new grandma tonight and I have enjoyed meeting a new bundle of sweetness thru photos today. Can't wait to meet your new blessing also! Sending my love to you tonight.

Barb said...

Thanks for sharing from the heart. You are not alone for sure! Some days it just takes a lot of effort to count our blesings. I love you sis and miss you.


I love this post . . . it reflects your life and most of ours, too. You are in a season of transition and that takes a lot of energy.

I have not received your mailing address, so I can send you your print. Can you e.mail it to me at dvs3girls(at)aol(dot)com.


Musicaljean said...

Love you, sis, whether you're up or down. I pray that you will find God to be faithful in all the transitions ahead. Unfortunately, from experience I will have to say that it will not always feel like He is. But He will be.